So ... Time has changed ...

So ... Time has changed ...
Finally I found a boyfriend ....
I am not so happy as probably I should be now.
Hi is not a boy from my dreams but I prefer to have this one than no one.
Is it so crazy ? Is it so strange ?
I don't think so ... I think that every body wants to be happy so and I.
Maybe I will be happy some day or maybe I will find another boyfriend ...
No one know what changes will bring a wind of change.

Why do I have to wait always? Should I ?

I feel a lot of emotions inside me ... It's so hard to put it in the words ...
Near every day I ask myself:
- Why do I like him so much ?
- What am I doing ? I exactly know that this relationship doesn't have any feature ...
- I don't love him, he doesn't love me either. Do I ?
- If so ... Why do I have so strange fillings when his arm is near my arm ... when I look on his eyes ... when I hear his voice ....
This is not a question of sexual orientation. I am gay and it is out of discussion...
My biggest problem is that I always fall in love with a wrong guys.

But still, I would like to fell his arm near my head ...

Tomorrow I will wake up in the morning to go for work. I will sit down on my desk. I will look on my co-workers and I will find no understanding in theirs eyes. It is so sad... It makes me fell bad ...

Few words at the begin...

At the begging I would like to apologize you dear reader...
I would like to apologize for my language – English - it's not my native language.
So, if you find some mistakes please comment them and I will try to correct them.